im so sick and tired of remembering how i felt complete in his arms and then suddenly felt so broken and alone.. everyday of the week, whenever i feel alone, i just sit back and reminisce our past, how he made me feel so comfortable and safe in his side.. by the way, the "he" (mark eric) is my ex boyfriend.. i just can't forget how my father beated him down and still he tells my father that he loves me.. why can't my parents understand what i feel..? they just don't know how bad it feels to be left alone.. we decided to hold on though everyone in my family is against us.. we don't see each other for months and i still think that im his only one.. i was wrong... he haven't  texted me, returned my calls or even responded in all my offline messages to him for a month.. then suddenly his "girlfriend" texted.. she told me that she was his new girlfriend for three months that time.. i don't know how to react so i just called a guy friend of mine and my best friend to cry on to them, to tell them how bad it hurts.. i was able to talk to him on my cell hours after we broke up.. i asked him if he doesn't love me anymore.. he said, its not that i don't love you anymore, i just think that it's not working anymore, and besides, your parents doesn't like me.. that was the last time we talked.. i miss him so much.. that stupid bitch girl knows that me and my boyfriend is still on by the time that they started their relationship.. i just don't understand why they decided to keep it a secret to me.. my boyfriend told me that he don't want me to get hurt.. then why do such things like that..? they already knew i was gonna get hurt, they should've told me earlier so that i was able to move on a little bit faster.. now, i still think about him.. how we plan our future together and how we escape from the eyes of my parents just to see each other.. i miss his giggles whenever we share jokes and all,.. i miss the times we are together and happy, like nothing else matters and nobody can stop us  from doing what we want.. everything that i see connects to him,. i don't know what's wrong with me.. i still can't move on, though 8months has passed.. can anyone tell me how i can move on with my life..? im still living in the past and can't seem to get through.. im sick and tired of all this things...

thats my tragic, painful, kind of happy and bloody, yet inspiring experience with my ex boyfriend mark eric.. i hope my next relationship doesn't end like this.. im gonna make sure we're legal to my parents.. aarrgghh! i miss him so much..!!!

because if this happens again, i will not believe that love truly exists..

i hope i can forget him now..

i need to know how i can move on..

i want to know how i can be able to forget our happy memories..!

arrggh!!

im dying to know how..!!! can anyone tell me?